[Lifestyle] What's on your mind lately?
Yesterday I was thinking about all the stuff that has lately been happening in my life and a lot of mixed feelings went all out to the point I started crying just because.
Not sure if this is something that happens to everyone, but there are moments in your life where all the winds start to go south and out of nowhere a ton of shit just starts to mess with you. Like shit that wasn't even broken starts to break, bills that were supposed to be paid already and yeah, they weren't, or even people that were supposed to help you and be your safe spot just come out even more broken and start to spill a lot of stuff in your face. No one asks you a single "are you fine?" and I surely don't think they ever cared about it.
As I said in other texts here at this place, people are strange as fuck and the more I know people, the less I like them. The less I like the way that everyone compares everything (me included); I also hate the fact that people tend to think that they can judge based on their experiences and everything they lived is the worst thing someone could do.
The fact that no one knows everything about you is the real deal. No one EVER experienced what someone else had and probably never will. The next time that someone comes up with a "perfect solution," I don't think I will understand that well. This might sound like ranting more than a text, but at this point I don't actually care that much about it and really wanted to take these bad feelings and thoughts out of me somehow, so yeah, feel free to skip this text as I vent out my frustrations with the world.
I'm not the religious one, but I'm pretty sure that someone threw a fucking spell at me at this point and it seems that everything that I fought so hard for is running through my fingers and it feels like I can't do shit about it. If you know a way to break this freaking spell, hit me as soon as possible, but please, just let me live in peace again.
I'm tired.