i'd rather be the quiet one
I've been thinking a lot lately about how we show up at work. not in the sense of just being present, but how we really are, you know?
I'm constantly asking myself if I'm being true to myself or if I'm just playing a part. if there's one thing that I really hate is a bootlicker. and I never, ever want to be that.
it's a weird line to walk. everyone wants to be seen and to have their ideas heard. with that in mind I still don't want to be the one who's always agreeing, always trying to have the "better" opinion just to impress someone higher up. I see it happen, people puffing up their chests, their egos, trying to catch the attention of the c-levels. it's like a performance and I'm not sure if I signed for this type of show.
I think there's a quiet confidence in just being yourself. in knowing your worth without having to shout it from the rooftops. in having an opinion because it's yours, not because you think it's what someone wants to hear.
I'm still figuring it out, this dance between being ambitious and being authentic. but I know one thing for sure: I'd rather be the quiet one in the corner who's real, than the loud one in the center of the room who's just putting on a show.
I'm not here to climb a ladder by stepping on others or by losing myself. I will never be doing that, that's for sho. I'm here to do good work, to be a good person. and I hope that's enough.